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Article 24
The roller coaster ride still continues. Things are still moving forward with the ice cream shop. I attended another ice cream convention this weekend (who knew these types of conferences even...
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Article 23
I saw L yesterday for couples counseling. It actually went pretty well. Actually, it went really well. Not only did M and I get some more stuff out on the table, and we both felt good, but my weird...
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Article 22
Left feeling 'Fu$% you'. Not really out of anger, more out of resolute. Makes no sense, yet maybe it does make sense?She wanted me to agree to a game plan, and externally I nodded in agreement, but...
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Article 21
M and I had couples counseling with L at noon, and I'm not even sure if I was present. I'm still trying to figure out how I'm supposed to 'be' with L, so I guess that's where I was. But I think I...
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Article 20
I've been wanting to write, but I've also been a bit hesitant. I could easily use the 'reasoning' that life continues to be very busy so I have little free time, but that's not exactly the...
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Article 19
Maybe I am getting better, slowly of course, at this whole talking-relationship stuff.On the drive to L's yesterday I knew (consciously) that there were 2 issues I wanted to talk about. I certainly...
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Article 18
Strange that I'm writing this, cause I actually don't want to write, sort of........clear as mud!I saw L this morning and I'm not sure what was going on for me, but somewhere towards the end I simply...
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Article 17
I want to tell you that I hate you for this right now, and at the same time I want to run towards you. I need you to be normal. I need you to read my mind. I need you to know when to offer me the...
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Article 16
The past weekend I couldn't shake the feeling of being concerned about L offering us her house. I was so afraid that she had crossed a line that she really shouldn't have. I was worried that it would...
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Article 15
I'm not sure if I haven't been posting for the past week because I haven't felt the need to, I haven't wanted to, I've been too busy, or I'm avoiding something. Or maybe a combination of all of...
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Article 14
After reading a fellow bloggers questions regarding being authentic, these thoughts came to mind....If I was being my authentic self in therapy I would:- Tell L that I am constantly struggling to...
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Article 13
I would never consider myself to be a 'talker', and I'm pretty sure people who know me would agree. And although it may appear that I talk about a lot of things with L, honestly she spends more time...
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Article 12
Man, this therapy-stuff is hard, and if I'm gonna take what I learn and experience in therapy out to the real world, well that is hard too!It's been a long, almost surreal week, especially dealing with...
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Article 11
In my head, I've started writing an update about a dozen times, but at the same time I'm not sure I can finish a complete thought. I think a lot of it has to do with the current state of my life....
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Article 10
It's not that I haven't wanted to post, I really have, but I hate to sound like I'm whinning, which I'm not, although it sort of feels like it.Once again, let's start with the 'easier' stuff....First,...
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Article 9
I think I'm just writing this so I can get it out. I really wish I could call L, actually I could, but I wouldn't know what to say, sort of. It was only the last few minutes (of our 90 minute...
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Article 8
I'm still not feeling connected to L. Saw her this morning and I didn't say much, and even the things I did talk about weren't really in depth; I could have talked about them with anyone. I was very...
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Article 7
Sorry I've been a bad blogger lately, and although I have a lot of really good excuses (dog ate my keyboard, forgot my password....) my friends of blog-nation have been in my thoughts!So, in no...
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Article 6
I guess I'm having a mini tantrum right now, but it's my blog and I'll cry if I want to!! I haven't seen L in nearly 2 weeks, and she hasn't reached out to me at all. And of course I know she's not...
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Article 5
I finally get to see L tomorrow morning. I think it's been about 3 weeks since I last saw her. We've exchange a couple of short texts, and one sort-of smarmy text from me. I was pissed/ticked that with...
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